Finding My Purpose In Prison

Weā€™re pleased to introduceĀ a new contributor to our blog, Eric Burnham.

My name is Eric Shawn Burnham. I was born April 21, 1979 in Las Vegas, Nevada, but I grew up in grad-speech-picOregon and California mostly. I came to prison in 2001, and Iā€™ve been at EOCIĀ ever since.Ā 

When I was 21-years-old, I took another manā€™s life while intoxicated, and I was given a 25-to-life sentence in prison. I deeply regret the actions of my youth, and Iā€™m ashamed of the lifestyle I was living that led to the death of another human being at my hand. But as much as I want to, I cannot change the past. I can use it to shape my future, however.

In 2003 I earned my G.E.D., and in September 2015 I earned a Bachelor of Arts in Counseling, graduating Summa Cum Laude (3.98 GPA). By mid-2017 I will have earned my Masterā€™s degree in Counseling. In addition, Iā€™m accumulating CEUs (Continued Education Units) in order to meet the requirements for state certification as an alcohol & drug counselor. (Iā€™ll still need 4000 hrs. of clinically-supervised counseling after Iā€™m released.) My education is important to me because Iā€™m dedicated to helping young people avoid making the same mistakes I made.

I work as a tutor in the G.E.D. program here at the prison, and I love my job. It doesnā€™t pay well, but it gives me the opportunity to help young people and practice my skills.

Personal growth, to me, means becoming the person I was designed to be. Iā€™m not too sure where the balance is found between nature and nurture in the formation of my spirit as a unique human being. I do know, however, that Iā€™m just one incarcerated man trying to overcome my past mistakes and make a positive impact on this crazy world. I kind of think thatā€™s what life is all about: taking the bad and using it for good.


Finding My Purpose in Prison by Eric Burnham

Can the prison experience be good? Inmates are crammed into small cells or overcrowded dorms like sardines, surrounded by some of the most difficult personalities on the planet, and ordered around by self-righteous, often power hungry and abusive authority figures. The cramped living quarters are physically uncomfortable. The lack of privacy is emotionally exhausting, and the empty nature of prison friendships isĀ socially unfulfilling. The boredom is mind-numbing. The loneliness can be crushing, and the inflexible power structure imbeds anger into oneā€™s personality. The incarcerated person is completely isolated from loved ones ā€” few things hurt more than knowing your friends and family have moved on without you. Perhaps the hardest pill to swallow, however, is knowing this is all self-inflicted. After all, if you admit itā€™s your own fault, you are then responsible.

There is no escaping the fact that Iā€™m responsible for an incredible amount of devastation. Iā€™ve brought suffering to my victim, my family, and myself; and I cannot move forward with my life until I acknowledge that. But when I finally realize I am the problem, something miraculous happens: I also realize I can do something about the problem. I find purpose. The time Iā€™m serving in prison becomes an opportunity to change how I view the world, how I treat others, and how I meet my needs. However, I cannot accomplish that on my own. I need Godā€™s help. But if Iā€™m committed to learning how to become a better man, God has promised to help. ā€œAnd we know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose,ā€ (Rom. 8:28).

God is interested in transforming me into an instrument of light, and He will use the difficult experiences of incarceration to bring about changes in me that I cannot completely understand. But Iā€™ve got to do my part. Iā€™ve got to live like I believe it. How I view my situation will determine how I live while Iā€™m here. I am not the victim. The selfishness of my past put me here. But if the selfish deeds of my past led to my present incarceration, what might my present positive actions lead to in the futureā€¦ if I give my present to Himā€¦ on purpose?

Mutual Gifts

Mutual Gifts

 

We are so pleased to partner with Ashley Asti. Ashley creates organicĀ custom skin and body oils to honor the skin and soul, with a commitment to ethical creation, sustainability and wellness. SheĀ is also one of our adopters.

Each month, Ashley AstiĀ donates a custom oil ā€œto an individual who deserves access to loving self-care, nourishment, and celebration but who may not be able to afford one of my oils on her or his own.ā€

I was thrilled and grateful to be the recipient of my own custom-made oil this month. Along with the oil, Ashley provided a lengthy description of every ingredient in the bottle and its function.

In Ashleyā€™s own words:

I set out to write women who are incarcerated because I wanted them to know that they are not alone. I wanted them to know that they are loved and supported and that their stories and lives matter because, the truth is, we heal with love, not isolation. But what Iā€™ve gotten in return is a gift far greater and far more precious than any I can offer.

The letters these women, these now friends, send me are lessons in life. I am moved by the strength they hold, the endurance they convey, the powerful rumblings of faith that seem to lift themselves up off the page. These women are my sisters in spirit, guiding me.Ā 

I stand with Adopt an Inmate because caring about and respecting all living beings matters, no matter who we are or what weā€™ve done. Because, in truth, we are destined to bring ourselves down until we know that dehumanizing one dehumanizes all. Bars, isolation, and violence are no longer the answer. We must find better ways to heal and co-create justice.

See theseĀ additional worthy organizations that Ashley partners with.

Winter 2017 Quarterly E-Newsletter

Winter 2017 Quarterly E-Newsletter

This publication was created for you ā€“ family members, friends, and advocates of prisoners. In each issue you will find useful resources for and from inmates; artwork, stories, recommendations from both adopters and adoptees; and news from the staff. Donā€™t forget toĀ print and send a copy to your inmate loved one. We welcome your feedback and comments.

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Hate Mail: End hateful prison mailroom practices

People hate us. It sounds melodramatic, but it is true nonetheless. Weā€™re hated by each other, by people on the outside, and by people working on the inside. By ā€˜us,ā€™ I mean incarcerated persons. Offenders, inmates, convicts, prisoners. And there are people who make it their mission in life to let us know that hatred is all we deserve.

An inmate can be persuaded otherwise through cards and letters. Phone and visitation are also effective ways to do this, but it all starts with mail. You canā€™t visit me or receive a phone call until one or two letters pass between us. Therefore, those who staff prison and jailhouse mailrooms have the power to wreak havoc on an inmateā€™s psyche. The mailroom is the hub of most love entering or leaving prison. Limit mail? Limit hope.

This isnā€™t lost on people working in mailrooms nor those who make rules and regulations governing mail delivery. Some examples:

Stickers ā€“ Many prison mailroom employees around the country believe stickers are abhorrent. It is unclear why adhesive is so detested. Prison mailrooms consider it so dangerous, mail will be returned to sender if any adhesive-backed material is attached anywhere on a piece of mail ā€“ including an address label. It is a wonder why stamps exempted from the no-sticker rule.

Pictures ā€“ There is a major industry which supplies provocative photos to prison inmates. Inmates pick from proof sheets supplied by various companies and take their choices to the mailroom when they are ready to order. Personnel review photos after they arrive to ensure they arenā€™t too revealing. They will also carefully scan any photo sent by family members. An inmate I know was told that a picture of his four-year-old daughter had been rejected because she was flashing a gang sign. He later found out she was holding up a peace sign.

Address rules ā€“ Letters from prison require complete return addresses in case they contain threats or illegal instructions. The USPS doesnā€™t care as long as the ā€˜Toā€™ address is deliverable. I once absent-mindedly omitted the city and zip code of the return address on a letter. Rather than add this to the envelope, a ten-second operation, the mailroom employee grabbed a carbon-copy form, filled out the violation details, stapled it to the envelope, and sent it back for correction. After I completed the missing information and dropped the letter back into the mailbox, it was rejected once more (in triplicate) because I had used an abbreviated first name (Rick, instead of Richard).

Handmade items ā€“ Some mailrooms will reject homemade cards ā€“ something children love to make for loved ones in prison. An inmate on my wing needed to mail a large drawing but couldnā€™t afford the 8ā€³ x 15ā€³ envelope from commissary. He made his own envelope. The mailroom rejected it, claiming that the envelope ā€œcouldnā€™t be properly inspected.ā€ Someone donated an official envelope and helped transfer the stamps from the rejected envelope. Technically this was also a rule violation. Inmates arenā€™t allowed to give commissary items to one another. Its considered extortion. Donā€™t give a friend a stamp or an envelope ā€” it leads to rape. Or so one would think.

Stationary ā€“ Families in Texas were once able to send their incarcerated loved ones writing pads, pens, pencils, and even stamps. No longer. Other states have followed suit and force inmates to purchase stationary at inflated prices.

Postage ā€“ Commissary sells various stamp denominations but nothing else that might be useful. For instance, USPS offers a flat rate box which is economical ā€” compared to stampsĀ ā€” if one needs to send home books. Because mailrooms are notorious for banning books, inmates often have to pay return postage for a rejected book. Not only will the mailroom refuse to sell you a flat rate box but they will also inflate the number of stamps required to send bulky items. Because they can, prison scum.

Eff Ewe ā€“ Maine recently tried to ban all non-legal mail to any of its prison inmates. Only judicial notices and legal correspondence would have been allowed. If the people of Maine hadnā€™t stopped the proposal, I have no doubt that many other states would have done the same. They may even yet try.

There are some reasonable rules regarding mail delivery which aim to ensure prison security, say, donā€™t send explosives or metal files through the mail. Yet, when you look at many rules and more importantly, the way they are enforced, itā€™s obvious that safety is merely a lame excuse offered for efforts to drain hope from the incarcerated. On its face this seems odd, doesnā€™t it? Why would prison officials want to squash an inmateā€™s hope? Because they donā€™t know who theyā€™re supposed to serve. If they were intent on serving society, they would turn out hopeful, educated individuals who are ready to lead positive, productive lives. Instead, they make decisions which tend to embitter and degrade their chargesā€” the very thing which leads to recidivismā€” costing society dearly.

Of course, not everyone can be educated. Not everyone can be turned from their anti-social behavior. Certainly though, belligerence and hatred greatly lowers the odds that one will leave prison better than when they entered.

The prison mailroom should be a conduit for love and hope and it is in many cases. It could be more, and you can be a part of that more if youā€™re on the outside reading this.

You could adopt a inmate, for instance. If youā€™re so inclined, you could also help by raising awareness about spiteful prison mail policies. Share this. End hateful prison mailroom practices.

Rick in TX

Review of Houses of Healing by Robin Casarjian

Review of Houses of Healing by Robin Casarjian

Initially when I began reading this book, I thought it was going to give me all the reasons why I needed to change my thinking (as an inmate), yet offer not much in the way of breaking down howĀ I could do it ā€” thankfully I was wrong! Houses of Healing is a remarkable guide on how one can truly delve deeply within themselves to peel back the many layers and discover why they are who they are and how they can begin to emerge into the person they know they can become.

This bookā€™s author has created and taught a well-known program within prison walls for over the past two decades. Through this program, countless inmates have come to discover their true selves, inner passions, and potential by first confronting the pain and turmoil they suffered as a child and slowly but surely learning how to work through it. You might be thinking this could only happen with a therapist right there to walk you through such a tumultuous journey ā€” I thought the same. However, CasarjianĀ composed this book to act as a surrogate counselor, walking with you every arduous step of the way, ultimately leading you to a place of healing and self-discovery.

She uses a psychoanalytic approach (focused on tapping into oneā€™s unconscious thoughts and influences that have, unbeknown to them, guided his/her behavior) to bring about this therapeutic breakthrough, whereby the ā€œInner Childā€ is the point of reference she asks her readers to get in touch with. The Inner Child, she suggests, resides deeply within all of us and, for prisoners in particular, this Inner Childā€™s unresolved conflicts that took place decades ago is often at the root of our self-destructive (i.e. substance addiction, violence, criminality, etc.) behavior. We are unable to change such embedded patterns of behavior without first getting in touch with the Inner Child that weā€™ve ā€œburiedā€ as a means to protect him or her ā€” ourselves.

I read this book with an open mind, allowing the concepts and teachings to sink in. At times I wanted to disregard what she was saying, or dismiss what she was asserting as not applicable to me, but then I realized this was yet again a defense mechanism I was trying to use to protect my Inner Child. When I mentally let my guard down and absorbed what was being said, I noticed how stirred up inside I became and how some discovery and healing was happening as a result. When you read this book and instinctively find yourself shutting down, press on harder. Thereā€™s a reason you are having that reaction; chances are itā€™s because what is being said is exactly what you need to hear and apply to your own life.

Houses of Healing is a highly respected and recommended book, especially by those who have a stake in correctional rehabilitation (i.e. educators, counselors, support group facilitators), namely inmates looking to take their lives in a new direction. This may very well be your guide to truly coming to understand why your life ended up where it did and, more importantly, how you can begin to change both your long-held thoughts and harmful behavioral patterns. If there wereĀ one book I could recommend to anyone in prison who is looking to understand why they may have made a series of bad choices (without even thinking about it) that landed them in prison,Ā are tired of living that way and wish to change, this would be that book. Give it a try: you won ā€˜t be sorry you did.

We Love Our Volunteers!

This month at AI weā€™re coordinating with many of our angel volunteers to get holiday greetings out to prisoners all around the country.

Thanks to everyone who is helping in this effort, including Jen at Inmates Matter TooĀ (and her volunteers), and many of our adopters, including our friend Ashley Asti (visit her shopĀ for organic and ethical skin care products this month, and 20% of your purchase goes to charity).

 

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Urgent: December Fundraiser Update

Thanks to our supporters on both sides of the wall, we are less than $600 away from our goal of $3,000 for our website fundraiser!

From the letter above, which included a donation of six stamped envelopes from an Arizona prisoner:

ā€œYou have taken on an enormous task, and placed on your shoulders a heavy burden, because on your shoulders you now carry the hope of those who were hopeless.

Prisoners who have jobs get paid 35Ā¢ an hour (some a bit more). So please keep in perspective that each letter you receive with a SASE represents two hours of raking dirt in 105Ā° Arizona heat, or sweating in a humid upholsteryĀ shop. Their letters to you are no small investment but they are worth it to these men. Because they carry hope.ā€

Volunteers have been working around the clock in preparation for the launch of our re-designed website. Completion of this project will enable us to reach more adopters, and in turn, more forgotten inmates.

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Send us some love this holiday, please help us raise

the final $600

We are a registered domestic non-profit and rely solely on donations. no one at AI receives a salary, and 100% of donations benefit prisoners directly. If everyone reading this gave a few dollars, our goal would be met in an hour.

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Neither Snow Nor Rain ā€¦

Neither Snow Nor Rain ā€¦

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Everyone at AI headquarters and all our volunteers are pulling together to help get some of the backlog of mail cleared out by the end of the year. The office cats, Scout (top) and Boo (bottom) are always doing their part.

Check out the recent stamp donations ā€“ weā€™re so grateful!

Happy Thanksgiving

Leah and I are using the holiday to put in a solid four days of work to clear out some of the back log of mail.

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About 11:00, we had a surprise visitor bearing a holiday meal for each of us (provided by the local Elks Lodge:

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AND, a personal donation of $500 to go towards our website fundraiser!

We are so grateful.

A blessed Thanksgiving to our entire AI family.

Oregon Voters: Congressman Peter DeFazio on Mandatory Minimum Sentencing

In response to a letter we sent to Congressman DeFazio in Oregon, we received the following:

Dear Ms. Brown:

Thank you for contacting me about mandatory minimum sentencing. We are in complete agreement on this issue.Ā 

You will be pleased to know that I have consistently supported legislation to either reduce or eliminate mandatory minimum sentences. For example, I was a cosponsor of the Smarter Sentencing Act last Congress. This bill would have reduced mandatory minimum sentences for certain non-violent drug offenses. The bill also would have directed the U.S. Sentencing Commission to review and amend its guidelines for sentencing and requires the Attorney General to submit a report on how cost savings from these changes will be used to further reduce prison overcrowding and invest in prevention, intervention, and improved law enforcement.

With federal prisons currently operating at between 35 and 40 percent above their rated capacity, there is no question our federal sentencing system needs reform. I have long had serious concerns about the increased use of mandatory minimum sentences, particularly for non-violent first time drug offences. I have met with many judges who felt sentences they were required to hand down were excessive, but were unable to apply any discretion to the sentences because of mandatory minimum laws. The effects of such sentences from these failed policies are making hardened criminals out of non-violent offenders.

In place of mandatory minimums I support reinstating federal parole, among other policy options. I am also interested in alternatives to incarceration where appropriate. For example, I have always supported funding for drug treatment courts. Drug courts play an important role in breaking the cycle between drug abuse and crime.Ā  They combine substance abuse treatment, mandatory drug testing, sanctions and incentives, and transitional services to help substance-abusing offenders get back on their feet and prepare for re-entry into the community. These services are not only critical for past abusers by helping individuals become self-sufficient and contributing members of society, but drug courts also help build safer communities.Ā Additionally, as a County Commissioner I fought hard to establish a work camp that served as an alternative to incarceration. I believe that it would be worthwhile to look into similar alternatives on a federal level.Ā 

Thanks again for contacting me. You can be sure I will continue to fight for long overdue reforms to our criminal justice system. Please keep in touch.

Sincerely,

U.S. REPRESENTATIVE PETER DeFAZIO
Fourth Congressional District, Oregon

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